the bumper part of the van... 

Car Accident pics

i've got pics from dad's car accident. it's not big at all. just a little dent. i'll be posting them real soon!

i just practiced my speech for this saturday on my parents. they're ok with it. i'm still not so sure. i have to do a little adjustments here and there. hope it'd be ok for everyone! i'm like transferring all the pic from my backup drive to my comp now! it's so much trouble! and it's so damn slow! and there're so many errors everywhere! urgh. i just wanna stop work. anywayz, i gotta go have my shower now. it's kinda late to be showering, but i feel so icky. i'd have to wash my face though! i really hope that i don't screw up this saturday on my speech!! fingers crossed!!

Some Happy Things to Think Abt.

i'm so happy and excited that my house is finally getting a makeover aka renovation! after 10 long years of living in the house, finally getting a renovation. so relieved. the work's gonna start real soon. right after the Hari Raya Celebrations. the "unloading" of my house junk has been almost complete. th eonly stuff left are for daily usage. oooh, i just cant wait! but i don't think the whole family putting up at my uncle's 3 bdroom apartment would be agood idea. for instance, he has only one room available, for like wat, the 6 of us in the family?? i'm not sure how we're gonna live in that place, but i'm sure that i've gotta bear with it. all towards a better home! and another thing is, my godsister, namely, grace also, is getting married this weekend! oh, we are so involved! i volunteered to be their photographer!! it's so cool! my sis, grace was suppose to be the bridesmaid, but then according to their chinese beliefs, grace wasn't suitable in aspects of chinese zodiac signs. she was so close to getting a bridesmaid dress! but i'm really excited abt it. plus, my confirmation is on this coming saturday!! oh i can't wait. i'm excited yet nervous as well, cause i've got a thank you speech to deliver!! but i can't wait to get confirmed! i hope i do well on my speech. it's really freaking me out as the days grow nearer. really scary!! may God guide me during my speech!

Car Accident

i forgot to mentioned that dad came back today with news that he's car got "scratched" by a bus. i wouldn't know the right word to use to describe what the bus did to my dad's car. but it was nothing serious. i mean, to the car, it smashed it's bumper i think, from dad's descripton. i don't know what happened. i've not yet went down to check out the damage. but dad was pretty calm about it when he told us the news. it was kinda weird, i mean, i'm sure he feels something. but he showed no expressions. he was like, "neh, it's ok. what to worry about?? it already happened. i cant cry over spilt milk, can i?? i'm just gonna get it fixed." i was like, "oh... ok... God's plan." how weird of dad.

Decisions

i feel so lost right now. i don't know what i'm doing with my life right now. ugh. life has always got it's ups and downs, and this is definitely my downs. i guess the thing that's bugging me now is about my "step" towards my future/career!! i'm not quite sure if this decision i make now would do me any good or bad in the near future. it's obviously kind of hard to follow what they do in the movies. as in "follow your heart and you'll be happy." i've certainly tried that in my life before and i don't think it really applies in reality. certainly not with the pressure surrounding you. see, my problem is that i don't know which stream am i s'pose to take for next year's class. i know it's kind of silly of me to be worrying over this, but, i'm the kinda person who gets worried very very easily! there are mainly two streams to choose from which are Arts or Science. i've been wanting to take Arts all this long, not to mention with the support of my family members, especially grace. i told her what i wanna be when i grow up, and she told me to go on with Arts. after feeling a whole big lot of burden being taken off my shoulder and after feeling the sense of dignity that i followed my guts, i was being crushed down by friends, mentally. i went to school today, and i brought the whole subject up. and all my friends were like, "better not take Arts or else you'll have no future lah!" i was quite taken back by this. and they all explained how the school doesn't pay much attention to the only two classes allocated for the Arts stream and how the population in the two classes are 95% malays (i'm not being a racist though) and how i would kinda suffer in that two classes. and i looked at the school yearbook which i got today at the amount of people in the class that i was going to be in next year, i chickened out a little. so is tarted doubting my decision again, like i always do. i can't believe i'm so vulnerable, but i am! hate that fact. but ii've actually tried following my guts in small matters in life and somehow, not following other's advice makes things worse for me. so i'm kinda afraid of that in a sense, although i'm not even sure if my decision for now would even affect my future studies. so i went 2 personally ask the teacher myself, cause, you know, there're backstabbers everywhere. and yeah, the teacher said it himself. he'd encouraged me 2 take Science and if i really wanted to go with Arts, i'd gotta be strong and not easily carried away by my crowd (which i'm so totally not good at). i totally don't know which path i'm suppose to go! am i just taking a risk if i followed my guts?? am i just pretending if i followed the crowd?? owh, i don't know. often at times like this, i forget to always turn to someone that i could really find comfort in. who is it?? God.

Kim's Coming!!

yay. i'm so excited that kim's coming tomorrow!! he's actually working on our house!! everytime he says he's coming over, our hearts flip and we get butterflies in the stomach. LOL. we as in the whole family!! i don't know why, but we just feel like that! getting all excited and stuff! but i guess, it's just a sense of respect and stuff like that coz he noea better about the house than we do! that's what we're paying him for, anyway! he's gonna see the house in a wreck, and he'll be all, "i'll fix this!"

Fishbone Reaks!!

uelk! i went to gurney today, with my "fellow confirmands." we had a nice time. although it was kinda like, just waiting for time to pass by. anyway, jacalyn suggested that we go to Kyro's Kebab and everyone like, went on with her, cause she says she wans to eat the spaghetti there (which looked kinda weird to me. or was it spaghetti??). but anywayz, we sort of settled down on the tables and stacey was like, "i feel like eating sushi, lah." and i was like, "yea, me too, lah!" and everyone just stood up and walked off from Kyro's. omg. we went to Sushi King then. we kinda occupied the whole rotating thingy table. i really love sushi, and guess what, i ate the most there! LOL. sushi's like, heaven to me. but then, i'm kinda suffering the consequences. i think i have a fish bone stuck on my throat! and that hurts! i think i had too many salmons than i should've! anyway, this fishbone thingy really sucks! it hurst everytime i swallow my saliva! urgh. and i cant seem to get it down by eating more food. i even tried stucking my finger in my throat, but that lead me to the vomitty feeling, which is kinda uncomfortable too! dad told me 2 swallow pieces of banana. but there wasnt any around. it's like stuck in the middle now. this isn't the first time!! i can't remember when was the last time though. but what i know now is that it hurts. and have i mentioned that it's rather annoying and irritating also! urgh! can someone help me?? i'm just hoping that it'll all past when i wake up tomorrow!! by the way, jacalyn managed to get back to Kyro's for what i think is spaghetti, with the whole bunch of us sitting there again! it's so weird, yet so funny!! i really had a great time today. how i wish things would stay that way forever between us... *sighs*

Special Coverage (Part 2)

for those out there who would like to watch the Special Coverage of Oprah Part 2, it's going to be aired this Sunday. and it's going to feaure starts like John Travolta that did their part to help those ppl in pain. Sunday, 8pm-9pm, if i'm not mistaken. i also rely on grace to tell me to watch! LOL.

Hurricane Katrina

i was watching Oprah Winfrey last sunday. she made a special coverage on the after-effects of Hurricane Katrina. it was such a touching episode. it had so many dead people in it! there were so many ppl dying. and there were so many bloated bodies everywhere. it's so sad to see the world like that! but then, the worse thing was, the senator actually admitted that children were being raped at a time like that! it was so sad. very very sad. even Oprah couldn't resist her tears, what more can i do?? i mean, at a time like that, those ppl can still have the urge to do such an awful thing. and it was being done on children! for God's sake, what has the world turn into?? grace totally broke down when she heard the news. i know this is coming kinda outdated, but i did watch the news and felt terrible about it. i couldn't help much but to donate what i can, which is never enough. but after watching the "inside" scoop of the hurricane, i felt horrible, beyond words! i mean, what we watch in the news was only a very rough surface of what happened, we never knew actually how the conditions was. and it was a horrid sight! i've never seen anything worse than this. besides the child rape, there were also group fights and ppl with weapons were just walking around! what's wrong with them!? they were protesting and fighting with one another for territory and food! they must be insane! really insane! they were shooting each other and innocent ones as well. and their bodues were just left there 2 rot. such an exposure to all kinds of diseases! and there was this doctor, Dr. Oz, from Oprah's Angel Network team, if i'm not mistaken, went there and helped. the weird thing is that, the hospitals were mostly vacant. instead, they used the airport as the medical centre! i'm not quite sure what happened there but i bet there must be a reason. so, the Dr. Oz gave all the help he could. he was so kind and brave! i really salute him. he even saw a dead, bloated body by the roadside and closed it with respect. he was a great man. he even saved a baby's life. an infant! and another two of Oprah's crew also went down to Louisianna to comfort the victims. one was Nate Berkusthere were alot of ppl with lost family members. they all looked so worried and stressed out. at times like this, God was their only comfort, i think. as i watched the families shouting out for their lost ones, i told myself, i'll never be able to relate to what they were feeling then and i'm so lucky to live in comfort. the bright side of the disaster was that stars like Matthew McConaughey and Faith Hill were the ones who came and gave their support to all te victims, helping them in their own little ways. i was so touched by this. i mean, it is the right thing to do, isn't it? not all Hollywood stars are all about fame and fortune! to me, the reason God created all these natural disasters, is to mainly bring the world closer together. what i'm trying to say is, this is not a punishment from God. remember, God doesn't punish ppl! He forgives. but he made all the wreckage, i think, it is to make the rest of the world (which are not affected) to realise that they should be thankful and greatful for what they have like, families and home. it is also to bring mankind together. in a sense that, we all come together to do our little part in helping those victims. i dont quite know how to explain it in words, but all i know is, God isn't all that cruel. He has a reason for eveything he does. i take this all as a lesson and i think we all should.